Wednesday, October 06, 2010

Like a Rolling Stone

How does it feel
How does it feel
To be on your own
With no direction home
Like a complete unknown
Like a rolling stone ?
--Bob Dylan

I have had that tune stuck in my head for the past few days, and…it makes perfect sense. You see…

Recently, I have been drug down into the black and white muck and mire of drabness, despair, and anger.

I have been lost.

I allowed it to happen, and well, that just isn’t me.

And then, after humming and singing Like a Rolling Stone over and over the last few days, I remembered…

I’m Matt-Man, and I was born in 1965, Bitch!!

Why is being born in 1965 significant? Three reasons quickly come to mind…

‘65 was the year when the amusing exchanges between Andy Taylor and Barney Fife went from being affixed upon grayscale celluloid and began to laugh off the TV screen in hues of blue, green, and yellow.

It was the year when the Vietnam War escalated, and the bright, red blood of our young soldiers began to noticeably drip from the lips of Walter Cronkite during the evening news.

1965 was the year when on a stage in Newport, RI., Bob Dylan shed his acoustic skin, strapped on a sunburst Fender and both electrified and pissed off the world.


1965 was the year when life met color, and I dig it.

I had forgotten all about that.

It’s time for me to rediscover the coincidences between the year I was born and re-apply that year of when life met color mentality to my life again.

I need to get back to being edgy, and quit being the de facto peacemaker, when it is merely to keep the peace in spite of what I believe.

I need to once again not only think with a “Fuck It” attitude, I need to start putting it into practice once again.

I am changing the direction that I have been on. I don’t know where it will lead, but it will definitely lead me to a better place.

But, this direction may be bumpy, because if you think I have been brutally honest and acerbic on Bagwine Ruminations in the past, you are in for a rude awakening, ‘cause I am going to go into overdrive.

There will be no more diplomatic nuances. There will be no more shrugs of indifference…

There is no more holding back. There is no more rolling with no direction…I’m comin’ home.


Cheers!!

Working 10-2 today and then off until Saturday morning. I’ll see ya ’round the internets soon.

33 comments:

MysteryChick said...

Looking good Matt-Man.

Can't wait to read you at your edgiest. You ALWAYS make me think when I visit.

Average Chick said...

Welcome back Matty :) I've missed you!! (((HHHUUUGGGSSS)))

Matt-Man said...

Chick. Thanks have to fix the header to how I want it, but I kinda dig it. Cheers Chick!!

AC: Well, I haven't been gone but for a day, physically anyway. Cheers and Thanks AC!!

Jay said...

*Yawn*

Hahhaha ;-)

I like the new layout. This is nice.

Welcome back!

Matt-Man said...

Jay: Hee. I like it too, but I want to shrink my head and get affixed to my post title. Its a wicked pissah. Thanks for everything Jay. Cheers !!

Charlene said...

So you're running toward the drama.

Matt-Man said...

Charlene: No. Actually I am running away from it. Honesty is not drama...Feigned outrage and denying one's own feelings are catalysts for drama.

I shall be quite more matter-of-fact than I ever have been. Cheers Charlene!!

Jay said...

Well if you want to shrink your head, just do a google search for "Art Linkletter Nude"

Matt-Man said...

Jay: Ha...He's still sexier than Bea Arthur. Cheers Funny Man!!

Mike said...

Bigger font. I see your going for the older crowd. Thanks.

Scott Oglesby said...

Well this should be really interesting. I’ve already learned a new and shocking truth; Walter Cronkite was a fucking vampire…? Then he bit Larry King didn’t he?

Doc said...

*sits back and makes popcorn*

Welcome back Mahoney!

Micky-T said...

Same shit...just another day.

Thought we lost you in the folds of your new flower, Lily.

Matt-Man said...

Mike: I need the bigger font as well. My eyes suck. Cheers Mike!!

Scott: Ha. That was pretty good. Cheers Funny Man!!

Doc: I hope I don't disappont. Cheers Doc!!

Matt-Man said...

Micky: Ya think so? Because I don't fucking think so. Cheers Mick!!

Micky-T said...

That was a test....you passed.

Raquel's World said...

A more edgy Matt-Man? This should be interesting. Love the new look though!

Matt-Man said...

Micky: And what does that get me? Cheers Mick!!

Raquel: Oh yeah, I have a lot of demons and bitterness in this happy go luck shell of a body. Cheers and Thanks Roc!!

Micky-T said...

http://www.cartoonstock.com/lowres/mka0060l.jpg

Michele said...

Changing your look around the Bagwine digs is a good start. I look forward to more.

What can I say about Dylan; great poet, horrible singer. Don't get me started on 'Nam.

Matt-Man said...

Micky: I shall check it out when I get home this afternoon. Cheers!!

Michele: Thanks...I thought changing the look was a simple, yet good first step in overall change.

As for Dylan? I think anyone who when he sings, translates his words into ebonics is uber-cool. Cheers Michele!!

Dianne said...

I love the imagery of 'where life meets color'

the new layout is great

and as always ya know I love you in whatever frame you decide to pose in

Beth said...

I like this attitude. Maybe I'll learn this too, and quit being afraid of everything.

Lu' said...

My left is confused. My right is in a quandry. Ping pong. I like the new digs sort of. I feel old :)

Dana said...

When it's time to make a change, it's time to make a change.

Ummm ... yeah ... I'm full of prolific thoughts today.

Love the new digs and the new direction!

Desert Rat said...

I love the new look! Eagerly anticipating acerbicity (apparently, I made up that word).

Change is good - I'm working on that too, m'darlin' - had a knock down drag out with some of the fam - they no likely the "new me," I'ma thinkin'.

fuckitall.

Matt-Man said...

Dianne: Yeah, I thought it was kinda clever and the picture is perfect for the line. I dig you always and any way as well. Cheers Di!!

Schmoop: If you do learn it, maybe you won't strike out preemptively because you think you may get hurt. Cheers and Zoves!!

Lu: I dig the new digs. Ha!! Why ya feelin' old? Cheers Pal!!

Matt-Man said...

Dana: You kinda paraphrased Peter Brady. Thanks and Cheers Dana!!

Rat: Damn right and I hope you had a wunnerful B-Day. If you're in Ohio in February you could give me a B-day present. Purrrr. Cheers and Thanks My Friend!!

Mike Golch said...

you reworked your site,it's lookin good!

Matt-Man said...

Mike: Why thank ya Mike. I appreciate that. Hope all is well with ya. Cheers Mike!!

irene said...

I much prefer it when people are themselves.Life is to short for anything else.I have found this out only recently I thought something was wrong with me(I have plenty of shortcomings)and I had to be this way to please this person or that person and screw it I am what I am take it or leave it. 8P

PS
I like it when your raw and real also may I add hysterical!

indozine said...

very nice!
keep up the good work!

Matt-Man said...

Irene: Yeah, people should always be themselves, good luck to you, and thanks. Cheers Irene!!